Soundless scream..

they said the never need me..
well..i read their eyes..
i saw that word in their sight...
n i pretend to really not too care..

remind them, i never want to be born...
remind them, i hate my self more..
They not need to hate me..
i hate my self more..
more and more...

i hate my self..
i hate my self..
i hate my self..

i hate everyone to hurt me..
but it's okay if i hurt my self..
since i hate my self..
more and more..

i'll kill everyone who dare to cut me...
but it's okay if i cut my self...
since i hate my self..
more and more...

i'm laying in my bed..
think bout how i hate my self..
think bout why the blood must be red..
think bout how this pain can't erase my loneliness...

i cried..
then i hate my self cz i'm cried..
more and more...

i hate my self..
i hate my self..
i hate my self..

inside, i'm scream..
the soundless scream..
i broken into the pieces..

please hear me..
hear me...
i'm begging..
if i must die, i will..
but before i die..
love me first...

i hate my self to scream..
Cz u will hear..
u always can hear..
although it's just a soundless scream..
u always can hear...

" are u okay? "

" i'm fine at all.."
i'm lying..
i'm smile but it's a lie..

"tell me..what happened with u? "

u always can see..
your eyes is a good one..
have i ever told u?

" i'm okay..thank you.."

i hate my self to scream..
Cz u will hear..
u always can hear..
although it just a soundless scream..
u always can hear..

" it's okay if u dnt want to tell me..but take care please.."

n i always hope u to hear..
although i never admit it..
i hope you hear..
my soundless scream..

i burst into a tears...
is that so?
is that you who want me to live?
is that you who want me to stay?
is that you who say you care?
is that you...?
the only one who can hear my soundless scream..?

u pretend not too care..
But i know you worry..
i love when u worry me..
cz at least i know..
i'm still worthy to be worry..
cz at least i feel..
i'm still worthy to care by..

"i'm sorry...i'm sorry...i'm sorry..."
to hurt my self..
N hurt u too when u know..
sorry..sorry..sorry..
to didn't tell you before..
And pretend that i'm okay in front of u..
sorry..sorry..sorry..
cz i afraid you will hate me when you know..

" i'v ever told u before, haven't i? tell me..tell me if you sad..tell me if u feel alone..just tell me..whatever you feel..tell me.."
u always have me..
u always have me..
u are never alone..

is burst into a tears...
is that so?
is that you who want me to live?
is that you who want me to stay?
is that you who say you care?
is that you...?
the only one who can hear my soundless scream..?

u always can hear..
although it's just a soundless scream..
u always can hear...