Beliefs.

though it's been months i've tried this and that. i've been going through those tricky paths to change, still sometimes people don't believe the effort i'm trying. the way i'm standing in, the hardships i'm going through. nono, i'm not going to let them know about how hard i try, i just need them to believe. believe.

when i look back and question why people do feel so hard to understand what i mean and what i need the most from them, to understand how much i need them to believe, i look at myself and realize, i've been doing the same to you. asking, questioning, demanding about when, why, how, what, you would change. because the result never seemed to come up.

it feels so hard to go on without beliefs that sometimes i just feel like going to give in and just go with the flow, accepting what's been happened and what will happen. give up.

so would you guys start to believe me i'm doing just fine, i'm doing on how to keep my head up high but my feet still standing strongly on the ground?? i just need your trust, believing i'm really on my way...

...and i'm sorry for not believing, i just feel you take too long time than you actually need.

but it's okay, i'm on my way, too. and i won't let people disappointed, i won't take too long time.